Tell me what's bothering you

Tell me what's bothering you.

Every now and then I encounter an endearing sort of client. He’s seeking connection, chemistry and conversation, and he’s discerning and particular about who he spends his time with. 
He’s busy, likely far too rushed off his feet to find a friendly stranger at a bar or on an app, and is seeking someone who’s patient, flexible, kind, and exciting to be around. 
It’s not often that we’re able to strike a connection with someone in this day and age, so he’s grateful that I’m fully present when I’m with him. I leave my phone in my bag, offering him a chance to truly feel seen, heard and understood.
It’s a meeting he marks down in his calendar, counting the days as they go by.
He’s kind, showering me with compliments that I collect like rose petals to soak in when I’m feeling low. He’s smitten and it shows, expressing his delight for an upcoming booking with a quick text the day before, and a beautiful thank you message the day after. His word are short and to the point, yet powerfully expressive of his gratitude.

Not before long, he’s messaging me again to tell me he can’t wait to see me.
And the feeling is entirely mutual. It’s nice to feel valued, to feel as though you’ve actually made a difference in someone’s life. 
There’s another kind of gentleman I encounter. Perhaps he doesn’t want to “get attached”, or think interest kills passion and connection. He might even just be wary that he’s annoying me outside of a date, reluctant to express his enjoyment of my company. And I get that – I’ve been on the receiving end of essay-length messages that are exhausting to read, and I feel guilty that I can’t return the same length and detail in my own communications. 
He may be young and uncertain of how to express his emotions, buying into the narrative that “real men” don’t have feelings.
Or, privacy might be his main concern. Others in his personal life might not be supportive or understanding of our connection, particularly if he’s in a monogamous relationship. He doesn’t send a thank you text because he actually can’t.
Whatever the case is, he’d prefer to be as detached as possible. He wants to the mechanics of the interaction, not the psychological energetics of it. Which is perfectly fine – sometimes you just want a quick fuck and that’s it.
But as someone who specialises in The Girlfriend Experience, it’s an encounter that I’ll entertain, but rarely do I remember it. And I doubt it’s something they’ll remember either. Many a time have I asked a gentleman for a reference and he hasn’t been able to remember a single name, the ladies he’s been with a blur of lingerie and limbs rather than complex individuals.

There is no ‘right’ scenario here. Whether it’s your intention to have an exciting, quick yet anonymous fuck, or indulge in an ongoing liaison with a regular companion, there’s no moral high ground here. Everyone is different.
But for someone like me who wants to be wooed with words, to get to know their gentlemen callers more intimately, start to miss them and look forward to seeing them again, I know what sort of arrangement I prefer. 
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